Don't you forget about me

[sageandsea]

I have four months to lose 120 pounds, win the lottery, and find a cure for cancer.

Yes, my 20 year high school reunion is July 18-19. Which got me all nostalgic last night, and conflicted. On one hand, it could be fun, and I'm curious, but on the other hand, I only had a handful of friends in high school. Matt is dead. Robin wrote me once via Classmates or one of those things, but may have been freaked by the queer thing as she hasn't written since (which frankly surprised me, as Robin is the one who introduced me to Dead Kennedys, JFA, etc). I haven't heard from Molly, Mike, Michael, Anthony or Doug in well over 13 years - although I still have the zillions of letters Anthony wrote me from Eugene. And that's it. Those are the only people I considered friends. Everyone else was either neutral or frankly cruel (fat girl, you know, easy pickin's).

And that got me thinking about friends from Corvallis days. Since Cein left in October, all I have left from that time is Uncle Aaron in New Orleans, and Lance in San Jose. And Maria (my ex) who sends me the occasional email forward!

I know friendships don't always last forever, but when you're in the middle of them they sure feel like they will.

Comments

[eudaimonia.livejournal.com]

I know exactly how you feel. I didn't attend my 20th reunion - I was in the middle of moving and just didn't want to deal with it. Even though the town I was moving from was where I went to H.S. I'm going to miss my 25th this year, just because I can't be bothered, really. I just don't feel like I have anything at all in common with these people and I'm not really interested in social games.

I used to live in Corvallis, by the way. A few times! I lived there when I was in Jr. High, then went to O.S.U., twice.

[sage-and-sea.livejournal.com]

I love Corvallis, it's got such a sweet small-town feel. I pretended to go to school there :)

I don't know what I'm going to do about this reunion thing, really. I change my mind from moment to moment! I'm definitely taking the babe - maybe we'll take the kids, too, and go to a play in Ashland or something. Hmm.

I don't care for the games, but boy I'm curious!

[teapot-farm.livejournal.com]

If my school ever holds a reunion (which is unlikely, given that in the UK we tend not to do that - it's certainly not the institution that it is in the US) I would probably go, from curiosity and to see how I would react (as in, would I be thrown straight back into miserable 14-yr-old-ness, or would I get a new and liberating perspective, or would I hide in the loos, or...). I'm only in contact with a couple of people who were friends in senior school, but there are others who I've bumped into over the years and realised that actually I like them a lot more now than I did 15 years ago - they were pretty much 'neutral' then, but now, I like them. Makes me think about the different pressures that stopped me being friendly with them at the time, and how many of those pressures were self-imposed...
Of course, there's also the straightforward "who's rich, who's ugly, who's dead" motivation, but I'm sure I'm above such things... really... ;)