The state of the smoking

[sageandsea]

Smoking is such a nasty habit anymore.

I'm down to two cigarettes a day. My body no longer really has a strong nicotine dependence - these final two smokes are purely psychological. One is my "transition" cigarette - putting aside the stress of work for the stress of home - and the other is my last-of-the-night smoke, and frankly I'm almost over that one.

But I've realized, going through this process, that I actually enjoy smoking in certain situations. I, laughing but half-seriously, asked CJ last weekend if we couldn't just quit smoking, but keep a pack of cigarettes in the camping gear and just be smokers a couple of weekends in the summertime. And I really don't know how I'm going to compensate for the fight-cigarette. When CJ & I are arguing, when I just want to strangle someone...that cigarette.

So that's the state of my lungs at the moment. Oh, and Dr. Julie says my eyegraines are just that, optical migraines, so you all are SRMT smart!

Comments

[lonesomenumber1]

I quit five years ago, but I still smoke when I'm camping. Problem is, I've been doing a lot of camping this summer.
I may need to come up with more restrictive criteria.

[sage-and-sea.livejournal.com]

Really? See, that makes me feel better. I can determine the restrictions now - only one in the evening at the campfire. Hell, that would be easy enough!

[pygmymetal.livejournal.com]

Drop me an email when you get in tomorrow morning and I'll drop the check by.

[whitecrow0.livejournal.com]

Good luck. :}

[rensarockstar.livejournal.com]

"And I really don't know how I'm going to compensate for the fight-cigarette."

Pure and simple: Hard liquor.

[opakele.livejournal.com]

It sounds like you are doing great!

Word to that, Deb...

[turtle-grrl.livejournal.com]

you rawk girl. I on the otherhand am not down to 2 cigs a day, but i have this friend that i hang out with that makes me physically not crave cigarettes. it's totally weird, i just don't smoke around her and don't want to. me thinks i need to hang out with her more!!